Gabrielle
- sample monologue - theatre commission
Gabrielle
in her Teens
It
was my fourteenth birthday last week. Daddy
says I'm old enough for boys to lead me astray
now. I know lots about boys. And
music. And film stars.
I got lots of presents for my birthday.
Some socks and a new doll and a little flag to wave and
sweets and… A new boy in class called
Victor says he's going to give me a jewellery
for my birthday. I told him I'm not allowed,
my Daddy will beat me if he find out, but Victor says how he
goin find out? …Nothing
ever private in our house - a people always roun
you.
Did
I tell you about Victor? He has gorgeous
deep eyes you can drown in. When he laughs
the whole class fall about because he's so funny.
The teacher bawl him out but
he nah 'fraid. He
has these big muscles on his arm - he let me feel them.
He live past where I live and he walks me home sometime,
not to the gate - Auntie would explode if she see him with me.
He give me a wave when he
goes like this and he ask to hold mi hand…
Today,
the sky is bluer, the beach is sandier, my shoes
is shinier. Why?
Because I'm in love.
I know all about love. I read about
it in one of mummy’s old romance book Love
cures your spots and makes your heart swell and cures headaches.
Look what he bought me. It’s a
bangle. He bought it at the beach and me and him gonna
meet there tonight.
My auntie follow me and follow me and follow me and follow me.
And Victor is with the boys and they’re all there together
and chatting and wearing fancy clothes. Victor
see me and wave. My
auntie ask ( suspiciously) Is that
a boy waving at you? No Auntie, I giggle,
me no know them at all.
Aunty stick tight on me like glue, like sand between
your toe, no matter where me go me
cyan lose her. I say, auntie you like
my ghost. She say, no I’m your guardian
angel . But she give me this crease
eye look an don’t smile, like
she know something. Then
one of me sister arrive and auntie got problem.
Who she fe
follow - she or me? And she toing
an froing
like a grandfather clock!
Me
sneak away.
Victor
have his guitar and he start playing
me a song. It make
me sigh and me relax. We
hidden in the sand jus we two. Auntie wandering roun
trying fe
find me and Victor laugh and me laugh wid
him cos it funny how she walk and
search. He play me another song says this
one is just for you. And when he finish
he lean over and kiss me. On
me lips.
We
meet again at this dance. I was moving
round the dance floor I
and two of my friend from school, oh! the music it sweet it
get me deep I was swaying and turning this way then that, it
felt so good, I felt I was floating, and I in love too!
Then
he say dance wid me and we start
fe dance
and we outside. I did not know when we had left the other but
I feel safe with Victor I always do - he more than a friend.
We dance first hand in hand and then roun
mi waist and then he pull me close. I get this tingling all
over and his hands start searching all over me like he lost
something. Then he lean me down and start
fumbling wid me clothes, rubbing
hisself against me.
He’s grunting. Are you alright
Victor? me
ask him. He go
quiet and say he sorry. I don’t know what
for.
Suddenly
Auntie fine us and she shriek like
a bird. Aiee!
I knew licks was going follow.
She start beat me all the way all the
way home, then mi daddy join in: you (whack) been (whack)
making (whack) babies (whack) with (whack)
some (whack) rahtid Romeo?
In the midst of each lick I said his going England
one day, he got ambition . And I
know he love me !
My daddy said if he love you the right way then why he
don’t come see me first and tell me he
would like fe walkout wid
my girl, but no you to havfe snick
round like puss ina bag!
I stilled my self, I made up my mind, I
feel strong. I say, Victor he going to Ingland
and I’m going one day with him (whack). Me
cry till there’s no tears left in mi body. Me
no unerstan, why daddy
talkin bout babies?
Mi
father go roun Victor house an
Victor take some licks that night too fe
sure. Now mi not allowed fi
see Victor and him haffi move a
different class in school. Every time
in di morning now if mi ask for
another pone everyone
look an sayn mi mus
be preganant. Auntie
she say we cyan afford no doctor bill.
She look worried all the time
She start walk me to school every day and walk
me home. Weekend she watch me work on
di farm.
Victor
friend come and tell me in class that Victor sorry an all that,
his mother say we not to meet. Sometimes
I think about Victor, I think about his deep brown eyes and
his singing and the way he laugh. I still
have the bangle he gave me hidden in mi bible case.
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